Terrible Twos

Yesterday was my daughter’s second birthday and, as one does, I decided to kill some time by checking her development against a series of online checklists. I recognize that this is not unlike my obsessive drunken readings of countless, “Are YOU an alcoholic?” articles that I used to do, cocooned in my office with aContinue reading “Terrible Twos”

Crappy Weather

It’s been a pretty drab week. Days of freezing rain have kept me inside, and I’ve spent most of it learning the ropes of my new University position. This place is SO MUCH BIGGER than the one I’m coming from, and the courseload is insane, so it’s not like it wasn’t necessary. Still, we’re allContinue reading “Crappy Weather”

Another Unexpected Benefit

So I mentioned the other day that a few physical things in my life have been slowly improving: sleep, weight, etc., but yesterday I had a pretty big shocker when went for my monthly blood pressure check. I’ve been struggling with elevated-to-high numbers for about a year and a half now, and it’s bothered meContinue reading “Another Unexpected Benefit”

Reflections on Thirty Days

I meant to write more this week but my wife returned to work from her maternity leave on Monday and by about 1 pm both kids and I were in tears. Where my daughter has always been super chill, independent, and a helluva napper, the new baby is a little more challenging. Plus I’ve gotContinue reading “Reflections on Thirty Days”

And the earth was chaotic and void

I’ve started quite a few projects, since the start of the year, that have a reading-a-day element to them, not the least ambitious of which is beginning the practice of Daf Yomi, or a page-daily Talmud study that begins again every 7 and a half years. Just projecting myself 7 years into the future makesContinue reading “And the earth was chaotic and void”

This month in review: Quit-Lit

Though I did finish a couple of other books, this month was a big one for quit-lit around my house, with my tally coming in at a full seven read. I enjoyed some more than others, but learned something from them all. Here they are, with thoughts, in the order read: This Naked Mind, byContinue reading “This month in review: Quit-Lit”

A Case of the Fuck-its

My counselor said that I seemed a little off, during our one-on-one yesterday, and I had to be honest and tell her that I was really feeling over it.  Going a couple of weeks without a drink isn’t a huge deal in my normal life, I explained, I do it all the time.  But goingContinue reading “A Case of the Fuck-its”

On Jews and Drinking

One of my favorite Jewish heroes of old is Judith, and though there are many versions of her tale, I’ve been thinking a lot about the Hanukkah version.  Today is the last day of the eight days, and they’ve been filled with ritual, pageantry, and yes, stories.  Its struck me on this reading, though, howContinue reading “On Jews and Drinking”

Vulnerability

Will I ever get through a counseling session without thinking how bad I need a drink? Even after all of the work I did this morning, still making myself vulnerable feels awful and wrong. Funnily enough that’s the big topic that came to light, today, as we spoke about the successes and failures of theContinue reading “Vulnerability”

Why Now?

I mentioned the other day that my next assignment for IOP is a three-page essay entitled, “Why Now?” in which I have to write out my reasons for stopping, and what it might look like if I don’t. I woke up feeling good, today, house quiet with sleep, and thought I’d give it a shot,Continue reading “Why Now?”